Between Curious and Frantic

I’ve been upset with my output lately. Just overall. For a few months, I felt I did a good (at least decent) job posting inspired content on this site. I was also learning steadily and making good progress on my programming. But in recent months, less so. I tried to focus on specific projects, but I couldn’t stick to any of them for long. As such, I didn’t produce anything particularly interesting. In short, I went from curious exploring to frantic jumping between projects.

Maybe the reason for this is that school has been coming to an end, which means I have had to spend more time studying for exams recently. It’s reasonable to think that the slow mounting daunt of final exams would increase pressure and dilute focus. But really, I was working diligently for school before, and I managed to stress myself with exams more than enough in the past. The amount of free time I have also hasn’t changed for the worse. So I deem this an internal issue.

I think the problem is very clear: I piled up more and more tasks to work on at the same time. In effect, this hinders my progress since I can’t really focus on any single one of them, and thus I can’t do good work. To progress, I need to decide. I have to do one thing at a time.

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