Going with the seasons | Notion
I started with goals of productivity, career and money. Why? Probably because of my Instagram feed. But maybe also to prove something, maybe to set myself up financially - whatever the reason it was just what I felt I should be doing. 20s are time to grind no?
I faced setbacks and didn't make the progress I thought I would. I felt lost and frustrated like trying to fit a piece of a puzzle in the wrong space and it just won't fit. Personal and professional goals are not mutually exclusive and that's what I kept telling myself as a way to force myself to grind.
But life has its seasons. Grinding and grit only works when it comes from a place of strong intentionality, not forced anxiety. As much as a tree fights to hold its leaves in autumn, it still has to let them go and focus inwards if it wants to blossom in the spring. Maybe I was in a different season.
It made me reflect on my why - not just what my goals are, but the underlying needs and values behind them: the life I want to live, how I want to feel, with whom, doing what. At its core, a “why” has no specific shape. We don’t desire something unique and specific; we desire feelings and the fulfilment of needs within us, and there are countless ways those can manifest.
